That said, THINMAN, many people get with/fall in love with/build lives with partners who aren't their physical ideals. And even if I do manage to get a few dates with someone this anxiety stays with me. My lingering insecurities about my appearance means I almost always perceive every guy I am attracted to as way out of my league. I know objectively that I’m at least average looking: kinda skinny, good skin, a decent haircut, but I'm not someone with a bunch of beach selfies on his Instagram. While that's OK for hookups where there aren’t a lot of long deep conversations involved, it’s more of an issue for my dating life. I enjoy watching body worship porn, my preferences on Grindr and Scruff are set for that body type, and I always ask before hooking up with a guy if it is ok for me to feel their muscles and for them to flex for me, because that’s something of a prerequisite for me. I have been treated and still see a therapist regularly for it, but the last big hurdle I am having with it is how I am attracted to guys. I have struggled with some level of body dysmorphia for many years now, and in fact, suffered from anorexia and overexercising in college. I am a 23-year-old cis gay man living in the midwest and I could really use your advice.
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